I wanted to be a pastor since I was young. The first reason I thought I wanted to be is because I saw my pastor (Peter Ho) on stage preaching and he looks so handsome. But when I grew up, I know that it's not about looking good on the stage but to spread the Word of God and breathe life into people's lives. The idea of preaching and proclaiming God's Word is so deep in my mind.
Worshipping has been a part of my life. It started when I first heard of ihopkc, they started Night and Day worship and intercession, which was a new thing to me. As I've never heard of NON-STOP worship and praying before, and don't know about the Book of Revelation on the angels and everything just worship around the Holy God's thrown, then God started to transform me.
I started learning piano at the age of 6, before that I just listen the music at church and play it at home. This is how I find out my talent! Anyway, when I was secondary 1, my playing was like hitting rocks - harsh, noisy. Looking back to these years, probably because I was listening to music that are rebellious and noisy at that time and the impact of it was playing those noise in worship (which is really a bad idea). In recent years, as I started to be transformed more deeply by the Holy Spirit and to worship God in Spirit and in Truth (Word of God). I started to combine the talents that God has given me -- Music and Creativity.
People would think, being a worshipper isn’t really a job description. Actually everyone is a worshipper. Our life is a worship offering! Every moment, every breath, we should be worshipping. Worship isn’t about just singing songs, just standing for minutes or jumping around, not about your emotions but the praise to God with all your heart and soul and strength and spirit. Worship is a respond to God’s love. A way to express our thankful from our heart. A way to just gaze upon His beauty and His glory. Words cannot really express the greatness of it because it is more than words can say. But when we worship, we sing, we praise God, that makes our Father happy :) He loves hearing our praise from the bottom of our hearts. So why choosing worship as one of my job in the future is just because I want to praise my Father and that’s actually the main purpose why I’m living. Not just when I lead worship or play keyboard but also in my spare time, in my private time, in my daily life.
Sometimes I do think that I’m a bit abnormal, cause my third dream is to build a Christian TV Centre which establish the Word of God in daily life and not just having all preaching series on it but more news, more drama and more fun into Christian’s and non-Christian’s life. Making impact on people’s life with Christian value. I love God, and I would lay my life down for the sake of God’s glory. I would not have a big house, or even a beautiful flawless life, but I believe that God has plan the best for me to go for.
20th October, 2013
Last year, I applied for a school in US just to see if I could go to ihopkc as I haven’t been there once and I always longed to be there. But the school turned me down and I don’t have a chance to go around US. I didn’t really complained about this and a week ago, I heard that Jon Thurlow was going to UK (before he announce that on his website). I was totally excited about it because he is really good lyricist and I’m weak at writing lyrics (now getting better). So far this is the best gift, the best surprise my Abba Father has ever given me. He knows me so well and he has plans that far greater than anyone.
The worship was really great, not because of Jon Thurlow or anyone but God’s presence and His love just rush into my heart when the music starts. It’s so amazing that God uses us, all these broken, weak and low people to be His channel.
Just this morning, when I was having my composing time at school alone in the room, I started worship with the Word. Just within 2 hours, I've been composing 3 songs and God is so cool! As I honour Him in my regular basis, He will surly show mercy, love and kindness towards me. (and wisdom and everything that benefits me)
Can't wait to see more of God's greatness in my life :)